No Consistency

I find myself awake again...3 hours of sleep keeping the little one calm only to find my mind once again is unsettled. It seems this is my new norm as I continuously rehash the events of the day, the to-do list, lay out charts in my head to schedule what bills to pay next...even Pinterest is not appealing now.  Nothing of quality on TV and I am not sure why I waste my time.   Looking forward to a holiday of over indulgence...the scale isn't moving yet from these new barre workouts, so there's always Monday.   Back to 45 by 45 next week...seems like i am always falling a little short.   Upside is work will be productive...need to shift that productivity into personal balance!